Saturday, 29 June 2013

Wake up!

Honestly don't be that girl. That girl who goes back continuously thinking every time will be different. I understand you miss him,and it's easier to breathe with him around. But isn't it easier to smile when he is not breaking up with you or getting mad at you for no reason? you don't deserve to be the back up, the person he drops and picks up whenever he feels like it.
Don't be that girl. That girl who thinks each time he comes around he means what he says, won't leave again, everyone knows he will. And you end up looking like a fool in the end....again. I get that you're happier when he is texting you and cuddling you. But aren't you happier when you're not on the floor crying because you haven't heard a word from him all day? No one can tell you who to be. but don't be that girl. you are smarter than that girl, stronger than that girl. And you're worth hell of a lot more than that girl. 

- from the picture in my friend's instagram account,  @sasqimaulidya-

Sunday, 23 June 2013

another random thoughts

I've never regret my choices.
Meskipun dulu awal-awal sempet kepikir "Lho kok gini se...." karena dihadapkan pada realita yang sebenernya hebat, tapi nggak sesempurna ekspetasi.
But then I realized, kalo aku nggak disini, jadinya pasti nggak kaya gini dan mungkin lebih buruk.
Kaya yang waktu itu dibilang, kamu ditempatkan di suatu tempat bukan tanpa alasan, meskipun kamu merasa nggak berhak ada di tempat ini dan ada orang lain yang jauh lebih berhak, He has his own reason, and He know best.
Kenapa kamu disini, kenapa bukan dia, dan kenapa dia yang seharusnya ada disini malah ditempatkan disana.
Dan.. akhirnya penempatan dari-Nya membuat aku [aih] cinta berlebihan sama apa yang sudah Dia tempatkan. It was the most beautiful destiny that you gave to me, God. I am so thankful.